Radiation treatment notes
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 09:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fred_mouseToday was my second radiation treatment, and it was better than the first. ... I guess I should talk about the sensory hell that the first treatment was, and the way that it completely derailed my day (the second didn't completely derail the day, but some of my choices made it less than optimal)
( this got long, and I do not have the oomph to trim/edit )
2 down, 13 to go.
Wednesday Reading Meme
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 08:07 amosprey_archerWhat I’ve Just Finished Reading
William Dean Howells’ My Mark Twain, which is half reminiscences of Howells’ friendship with Mark Twain and half a collection of reviews Howells’ wrote of Twain’s various books. The first half would make an amazing buddy comedy: Mark Twain the eccentric humorist as the comic and Howells as straight man, going on adventures like “visiting Gorky in his hotel room to help him raise money for the Revolution, only to end up embroiled in Publicity when Gorky got kicked out of the hotel the next day for checking in with a woman not his wife.”
The second half unfortunately made me want to read some Mark Twain. I say “unfortunately” because historically I have struggled with Mark Twain, having attempted and failed to finish The Prince and the Pauper, A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur’s Court, AND Joan of Arc. But maybe if I try something aside from Twain’s historical romances…? His essays, his autobiographical travel books….? And I’ve always felt a sneaking suspicion that I really ought to read Tom Sawyer.
Gerald Durrell’s Marrying Off Mother and Other Stories, which I thought was more uneven than most of Durrell’s work. A couple of stories struck me as mean-spirited (particularly “Ludwig”), but I really liked “The Jury” and “Miss Booth-Wycherly’s Clothes.” I believe these are both fiction dressed up as memoir, but if anyone was going to run into a former professional hangman who was now a drunk in the jungles of South America, it would be Gerald Durrell.
What I’m Reading Now
After long cogitation, I’ve decided that it’s time to reread Katherine Patterson’s Jacob Have I Loved. As a child I found the narrator unbearably whiny about her perfect sister, but I’ve long harbored the suspicion that I might see something more or at least different in it as an adult. So far, I’ve been appreciating the strong sense of place and time, both in the lyrical landscape descriptions and the clear picture of the community on Rass Island at the beginning of World War II, and noticing that Louise does indeed have some endearing qualities: for instance, she loves to use long words, but often pronounces them wrong, as she’s only ever seen them written.
…I was not however wrong to remember that Louise spends a LOT of time whining about her sister Caroline, enviously recounting that every time they suffered a childhood illness, Caroline nearly DIED, thus making herself the center of attention YET AGAIN. So we’ll see how I feel about this in the end.
What I Plan to Read Next
Fascinated/appalled to discover that American Girl is releasing a novel about grown-up Samantha: Fiona Davis’s Samantha: The Next Chapter. Opposed to the whole endeavor on the grounds that everyone ought to be free to imagine Samantha’s future as they wish, whether it’s marriage to Eddie Ryland or rabble-rousing as a lesbian suffragette. However, I may nonetheless prove unable to resist reading the book.
William Dean Howells’ My Mark Twain, which is half reminiscences of Howells’ friendship with Mark Twain and half a collection of reviews Howells’ wrote of Twain’s various books. The first half would make an amazing buddy comedy: Mark Twain the eccentric humorist as the comic and Howells as straight man, going on adventures like “visiting Gorky in his hotel room to help him raise money for the Revolution, only to end up embroiled in Publicity when Gorky got kicked out of the hotel the next day for checking in with a woman not his wife.”
The second half unfortunately made me want to read some Mark Twain. I say “unfortunately” because historically I have struggled with Mark Twain, having attempted and failed to finish The Prince and the Pauper, A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur’s Court, AND Joan of Arc. But maybe if I try something aside from Twain’s historical romances…? His essays, his autobiographical travel books….? And I’ve always felt a sneaking suspicion that I really ought to read Tom Sawyer.
Gerald Durrell’s Marrying Off Mother and Other Stories, which I thought was more uneven than most of Durrell’s work. A couple of stories struck me as mean-spirited (particularly “Ludwig”), but I really liked “The Jury” and “Miss Booth-Wycherly’s Clothes.” I believe these are both fiction dressed up as memoir, but if anyone was going to run into a former professional hangman who was now a drunk in the jungles of South America, it would be Gerald Durrell.
What I’m Reading Now
After long cogitation, I’ve decided that it’s time to reread Katherine Patterson’s Jacob Have I Loved. As a child I found the narrator unbearably whiny about her perfect sister, but I’ve long harbored the suspicion that I might see something more or at least different in it as an adult. So far, I’ve been appreciating the strong sense of place and time, both in the lyrical landscape descriptions and the clear picture of the community on Rass Island at the beginning of World War II, and noticing that Louise does indeed have some endearing qualities: for instance, she loves to use long words, but often pronounces them wrong, as she’s only ever seen them written.
…I was not however wrong to remember that Louise spends a LOT of time whining about her sister Caroline, enviously recounting that every time they suffered a childhood illness, Caroline nearly DIED, thus making herself the center of attention YET AGAIN. So we’ll see how I feel about this in the end.
What I Plan to Read Next
Fascinated/appalled to discover that American Girl is releasing a novel about grown-up Samantha: Fiona Davis’s Samantha: The Next Chapter. Opposed to the whole endeavor on the grounds that everyone ought to be free to imagine Samantha’s future as they wish, whether it’s marriage to Eddie Ryland or rabble-rousing as a lesbian suffragette. However, I may nonetheless prove unable to resist reading the book.
😊🧑💻🌐
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 06:29 ambluedreamingNo more blank link previews (for public posts) 😊 Code Tour: 2024-12-01 to 2026-02-25
(I actually saw this on the GitHub push tracker journal thing a bit ago but didn’t actually test it, though I assume it worked already at that point.)
🐘 🦋
(I actually saw this on the GitHub push tracker journal thing a bit ago but didn’t actually test it, though I assume it worked already at that point.)
🐘 🦋
Transformation Challenge: War of the Worlds (1988-90): Fanfic: Stranger
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 11:00 ambadly_knitted posting in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
fan_flashworksTitle: Stranger
Fandom: War of the Worlds (1988-90)
Author:
badly_knittedCharacters: Harrison Blackwood.
Rating: PG
Setting: Sometime in Season 2.
Summary: He’s changed so much that most of the time, Harrison doesn’t recognise himself.
Word Count: 300
Content Notes: Nada.
Written For: Challenge 507: Amnesty 84, using Challenge 61: Transformation.
Disclaimer: I don’t own War of the Worlds, or the characters. They belong to their creators.
A/N: Triple drabble
( Stranger... )
Drabblethon: Accidental Interference: The Fantastic Journey
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 10:57 ambadly_knitted posting in small_fandomsTitle: Accidental Interference
Fandom: The Fantastic Journey
Summary: Non-interference might be the ideal, but it’s not proving practical.
Stuff I love challenge #4: Relationships
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 08:53 amgaladhirChallenge 4:
Make a Top Ten list for your favourite relationships in media and tell everyone what you love about them. This covers all kinds of relationships - romantic, sexual, platonic, professional, rivals, acrimonious, family, found family, something else not mentioned here. So, bring out your friends, lovers or enemies, whether canon or fanon. If it involves two or more people interacting in some way, it counts, so go wild!
The first one that comes to mind is Rush and Young from Stargate Universe. One of the joys of SG1 is the relationship between Jack and Daniel (the military leader and the scientist,) and SGU posits 'what if this central and vital relationship was instead between two people who couldn't trust or rely on each other at all? Wouldn't that be fun?' And yes, yes it was. The show does a fantastic job at making the audience nearly... so nearly throw our sympathies completely behind one of them, only to pull the rug out from under us and start feeling that maybe the other one is right after all. I love it.
In one of those love triangles that are completely calling out for polyamory, I love the relationship between Roy Kent, Jamie Tartt and Keeley Jones on Ted Lasso. Roy and Jamie go from being mortal enemies to best friends, while Keeley goes from going out with Jamie to going out with Roy, to going out with neither of them but also being in the best friend triad. Seriously, they should all date each other.
Lan XiChen and Jin GuangYao from The Untamed. My goodness, talk about love at first sight! And then JGY saves LXC's life and nurses him back to health and wins the war for him and makes sure he has enough help to rebuild his sacked sect... and then the guy who broke his little brother's heart tells him that JGY is evil? Does not compute. To me the special thing about LXC is that you can see how he would have given JGY a fair hearing even after everything came to light, had he not been tricked into acting rashly. Those Lans do love well, even if not always wisely.
I should say 'the relationship between Celeborn and Galadriel' because I have written about it a lot. The thing about it is that I had to think about it a lot if I wanted to write Celeborn at all, because it's a huge deal for him. I personally don't really care about it, except in the sense that I care about him. I think it says good things about him, though, that he's at least not the sort of insecure, weak minded little man who is intimidated by a strong woman. So I tend to write him as having the kind of self-assurance that is indistinguishable from humility - he doesn't need to prove anything to anybody.
Qui-Gon Jinn + the Jedi Council. This is another case of what I think of as humility, and many other people see as inflexible stubbornness and pride. I see Qui-Gon as someone who follows the will of the Force wherever he thinks it guides him. Given that the Jedi are called a religion, I think this can be seen as having a strong faith and therefore praiseworthy, even if it means that some people blame him for unleashing Vader on the universe. An interesting case study on how an established religion tries to contain one of their troublesome saints.
Loki + the gods/the Avengers/basically everyone. Like most queer kids I felt an immediate kinship with Loki the mythological figure, who was outcast and blamed for everything, even things he clearly hadn't done. Initially therefore I was very keen to get him forgiven and accepted into a less judgemental group. However, as time went on I started to appreciate why a group might have problems with a character who can't see a boundary without wanting to cross it. Now I'm like 'I still hope he gets redeemed but I think it's going to take someone a lot stronger than me to handle it.'
Khan/Joachim (from Star Trek, the Wrath of Khan) and Ra/Anubis (Stargate the movie.) Possibly even Jin GuangYao/Su MinShan. I'm putting these together because I do love the homoerotic tension of a villain with his chief henchman who is slavishly devoted to him. Not much else to say, just... the love! From terrible people to terrible people! There's something really poignant about it.
General Hux + his father. Hux's father was a child brainwasher who invented the brainwashing techniques that were done on First Order troopers. And he hated his son, while Hux both returned that hatred but also secretly yearned for his father's approval. How much was Hux brainwashed by his father too? No one knows. A toxic relationship but very interesting if you're trying to assign blame to Hux for being such a piece of shit. How much is he responsible for what he is? Can he be saved or is he too far gone? These are the questions the very tiny Hux fandom is asking itself.
Colonel Young + David Telford from SGU. What the heck is going on there? These two are apparently the best of friends while Telford is doing his level best to sabotage Young at nearly every occasion. Things get better after Telford is discovered to be brainwashed and working for the baddies, but he still tries to blow up an allied civilian planet at one point. And yet Young forgives him again and again, even for breaking up his (failing) marriage and making a move on his wife. I think 'what the heck is going on there?' sums it up entirely.
Jack/Ianto. I almost forgot this one but I was so obsessed with it at the time. What a trailblazer of a TV relationship it was! You know, Ianto's shrine is still there in Cardiff. People still visit and bring flowers. I thought Ianto was a very interesting character - he is probably the original of the fandom ghost, that sharply dressed but surprisingly lethal twink that turns up in every fandom given time. Or maybe he just hit that archetype by accident. Jack was less interesting imo, but also a trailblazer for his time.
Dessert : Custard Squares
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 01:14 ampattroseCustard Squares
* 1 cup (125g) all-purpose flour (or 1:1 GF blend)
* ¼ cup (30g) powdered sugar
* ½ cup (1 stick / 115g) cold unsalted butter, cubed
* Dairy & Eggs
For the Vanilla Custard Filling:
* 3 large eggs
* ¾ cup (150g) granulated sugar
* 2 tbsp all-purpose flour (or cornstarch for GF)
* ½ cup (120ml) whole milk
* 2 tbsp unsalted butter, melted
* 2 tsp pure vanilla extract
* Pinch of salt
For Finishing:
* Powdered sugar, for dusting
💡 Pro Tips:Press crust firmly—prevents crumbling when cut.Don’t overbake custard—edges should be set, center slightly jiggly.Cool completely before slicing—custard firms as it chills.
1. Make the Crust
* Preheat oven to 350°F (175°C). Line an 8x8 pan with parchment paper.
* In a food processor or bowl, mix flour, powdered sugar, and cold butter until crumbly.
* Press mixture firmly into bottom of pan.
* Bake 15–18 minutes until lightly golden. Cool slightly.
* Food
2. Make the Custard
* In a bowl, whisk eggs and sugar until pale.
* Whisk in flour, milk, melted butter, vanilla, and salt until smooth.
3. Assemble & Bake
* Pour custard over warm crust.
* Bake 20–25 minutes, until edges are set and center is just slightly wobbly.
* Cool completely in pan on a wire rack (about 2 hours).
4. Serve
* Lift out using parchment; dust with powdered sugar.
* Cut into 16 squares.
* 1 cup (125g) all-purpose flour (or 1:1 GF blend)
* ¼ cup (30g) powdered sugar
* ½ cup (1 stick / 115g) cold unsalted butter, cubed
* Dairy & Eggs
For the Vanilla Custard Filling:
* 3 large eggs
* ¾ cup (150g) granulated sugar
* 2 tbsp all-purpose flour (or cornstarch for GF)
* ½ cup (120ml) whole milk
* 2 tbsp unsalted butter, melted
* 2 tsp pure vanilla extract
* Pinch of salt
For Finishing:
* Powdered sugar, for dusting
💡 Pro Tips:Press crust firmly—prevents crumbling when cut.Don’t overbake custard—edges should be set, center slightly jiggly.Cool completely before slicing—custard firms as it chills.
1. Make the Crust
* Preheat oven to 350°F (175°C). Line an 8x8 pan with parchment paper.
* In a food processor or bowl, mix flour, powdered sugar, and cold butter until crumbly.
* Press mixture firmly into bottom of pan.
* Bake 15–18 minutes until lightly golden. Cool slightly.
* Food
2. Make the Custard
* In a bowl, whisk eggs and sugar until pale.
* Whisk in flour, milk, melted butter, vanilla, and salt until smooth.
3. Assemble & Bake
* Pour custard over warm crust.
* Bake 20–25 minutes, until edges are set and center is just slightly wobbly.
* Cool completely in pan on a wire rack (about 2 hours).
4. Serve
* Lift out using parchment; dust with powdered sugar.
* Cut into 16 squares.
Not quite 365 days questions, February.
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 01:03 ampattrose25. When was the last time the windows in your home were washed?
We're terrible. We only do our windows up once for spring and once for fall. Inside and out. I'm anxious to read if people do their windows more than twice a year. I know my sister washes her windows once a month. As much as I'd like to see mine look good every month, I just don't want to do it. Are we lazy? Why yes, we are.
How often do you do them?
We're terrible. We only do our windows up once for spring and once for fall. Inside and out. I'm anxious to read if people do their windows more than twice a year. I know my sister washes her windows once a month. As much as I'd like to see mine look good every month, I just don't want to do it. Are we lazy? Why yes, we are.
How often do you do them?
Topics for talk, February.
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 12:43 ampattroseThings I Need vs. Things I Want
My main bathroom. Needs to be redone. I would like to have it done, but we're going to do it ourselves. We need a new shower enclosure, all new matte black sink and faucets, and all new matte black shower faucets. Black towel racks, new countertop. Either quartz or ceramic. Then we'll sand down the bathroom vanity and paint it. Next are the new mirrors and wall lights. Followed by a black and glass medicine cabinet. We already have the new toilet. Then lastly, we will be painting the room. It's going to look brand new. We're going to start in April with the big things. We already have new flooring and accent rugs, too. These are all things I want, but do we need them? Why, yes, we do. When you own a home you have to put money into it from time to time. Next summer (2027) were going to sand all the kitchen cupboards and paint them dark grey. My kitchen is done in reds. Again were going to do all the work, so, it'll be affordable for us. I think there is a fine line between need and want.
What do you think?
My main bathroom. Needs to be redone. I would like to have it done, but we're going to do it ourselves. We need a new shower enclosure, all new matte black sink and faucets, and all new matte black shower faucets. Black towel racks, new countertop. Either quartz or ceramic. Then we'll sand down the bathroom vanity and paint it. Next are the new mirrors and wall lights. Followed by a black and glass medicine cabinet. We already have the new toilet. Then lastly, we will be painting the room. It's going to look brand new. We're going to start in April with the big things. We already have new flooring and accent rugs, too. These are all things I want, but do we need them? Why, yes, we do. When you own a home you have to put money into it from time to time. Next summer (2027) were going to sand all the kitchen cupboards and paint them dark grey. My kitchen is done in reds. Again were going to do all the work, so, it'll be affordable for us. I think there is a fine line between need and want.
What do you think?
Cuddle Party
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 12:04 amysabetwordsmithEveryone needs contact comfort sometimes. Not everyone has ample opportunities for this in facetime. So here is a chance for a cuddle party in cyberspace. Virtual cuddling can help people feel better.
We have a cuddle room that comes with fort cushions, fort frames, sheets for draping, and a weighted blanket. A nest full of colorful egg pillows sits in one corner. There is a basket of grooming brushes, hairbrushes, and styling combs. A bin holds textured pillows. There is a big basket of craft supplies along with art markers, coloring pages, and blank paper. The kitchen has a popcorn machine. Labels are available to mark dietary needs, recipe ingredients, and level of spiciness. Here is the bathroom, open to everyone. There is a lawn tent and an outdoor hot tub. Bathers should post a sign for nude or clothed activity. Come snuggle up!
We have a cuddle room that comes with fort cushions, fort frames, sheets for draping, and a weighted blanket. A nest full of colorful egg pillows sits in one corner. There is a basket of grooming brushes, hairbrushes, and styling combs. A bin holds textured pillows. There is a big basket of craft supplies along with art markers, coloring pages, and blank paper. The kitchen has a popcorn machine. Labels are available to mark dietary needs, recipe ingredients, and level of spiciness. Here is the bathroom, open to everyone. There is a lawn tent and an outdoor hot tub. Bathers should post a sign for nude or clothed activity. Come snuggle up!
Safety
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 12:00 amysabetwordsmithNegative Social Ties as Emerging Risk Factors for Accelerated Aging, Inflammation, and Multimorbidity
Negative social ties, or "hasslers," are pervasive yet understudied components of social networks that may accelerate biological aging and morbidity. Using ego-centric network data and DNA methylationbased biological aging clocks from a representative Indiana sample, we demonstrate that negative social ties are surprisingly common: on average, one in four network members is described as a hassler, and nearly 60% of individuals report having at least one. Results show that having more hasslers is associated with accelerated biological aging, with the most pronounced associations observed among individuals whose networks comprise more than 50% hasslers. Crucially, not all negative ties show the same influence: ambivalent ties providing both support and stress show stronger aging acceleration than exclusively negative relationships. Beyond epigenetic aging, hassling exposure is associated with poorer self-rated health, higher levels of depression and anxiety, elevated inflammation, greater multimorbidity, and adverse anthropometric indicators. These findings together highlight the critical role of negative social ties in biological aging as chronic stressors and the need for interventions that reduce the impact of negative social stressors embedded within close social networks to promote healthier aging trajectories.
Loneliness may have high risks, but it is often better than being harassed or outright abused. It's nice to have positive social ties, but they only help if they really are positive.
Negative social ties, or "hasslers," are pervasive yet understudied components of social networks that may accelerate biological aging and morbidity. Using ego-centric network data and DNA methylationbased biological aging clocks from a representative Indiana sample, we demonstrate that negative social ties are surprisingly common: on average, one in four network members is described as a hassler, and nearly 60% of individuals report having at least one. Results show that having more hasslers is associated with accelerated biological aging, with the most pronounced associations observed among individuals whose networks comprise more than 50% hasslers. Crucially, not all negative ties show the same influence: ambivalent ties providing both support and stress show stronger aging acceleration than exclusively negative relationships. Beyond epigenetic aging, hassling exposure is associated with poorer self-rated health, higher levels of depression and anxiety, elevated inflammation, greater multimorbidity, and adverse anthropometric indicators. These findings together highlight the critical role of negative social ties in biological aging as chronic stressors and the need for interventions that reduce the impact of negative social stressors embedded within close social networks to promote healthier aging trajectories.
Loneliness may have high risks, but it is often better than being harassed or outright abused. It's nice to have positive social ties, but they only help if they really are positive.
AKC Courtneyyyyyy Culture Festival #211: Yaguchi Moka
Wednesday, February 25th, 2026 05:17 amsonofgodzillaI worry that with a lot of these Team 8 entries, we are simply reiterating the same facts over and over again, but I really want to treat the stories of each of these girls as special and individual, so I don't care. If I have to repeat myself, I have to repeat myself, and with that said, Yaguchi Moka passed AKB48's Team 8 auditions and joined the group alongside Abe Mei, Okabe Rin, Okubora Chinatsu, Nagano Serika, Fujimura Natsuki, Onishi Momoka, Kuranoo Narumi, Shitao Miu, Cho Kurena, Hamamatsu Riona, Fukuchi Rena, Honda Hitomi, Yokomichi Yuri, the other Yokoyama Yui, Yoshino Miyu, Oda Erina, Oguri Yui, Yoshikawa Nanase, Hayasaka Tsumugi, and Hirose Natsuki, debuting in the SKE48 theatre performance of PARTY ga Hajumaru yo in 2014. Already highly thought of, Moka appeared with her peers in the opening number, Skirt, Hirari, and also Hoshi no Ondo alongside Nanase and Natsuki.
With the release of 47 no Suteki na Machi e on the B side of Kokoro no Placard in 2015, Team 8, with Moka amongst them, set out on tour, performing in a number of prefectures, not least of all her home ground of Miyazaki. Throughout this period, Moka and Team 8 were propping up the B sides of almost every AKB release, joining Tsumugi by making it as far Teacher Teacher before her graduation. I had stepped back at this point in time, but I can't help but wonder what these days must have been like for newer fans at the time, especially those brought in by the nationwide tour. It must have felt like there were two AKBs at this time, the "underground idols" doing all the hard work touring and actually being "idols you can meet," and, in contrast, AKB the institution, what remained of the Kami 7 and the golden age. This conflict can be seen in the results of the general election, for which Moka failed to rank each year of her time in the group right up until her final year when, like any sensible person, she chose not to participate.
From the age of three, Moka had been studying ballet, and whilst idols represent a very different kind of dance, I think it's obvious that, unspoken, she was part of the changing trend in the idol industry and AKB itself that saw the group pivot towards a more complex focus on dance than previous generations. Being an idol often implies having a number of talents, yet dance has become so integral to the identity of the medium, partly following the explosion of the Hallyu Wave, that I cannot fault management for wanting to make use of the inordinate number of trained girls that came of age and turned up at auditions during these years.
In 2017, as with other members of Team 8, Moka was afforded a concurrent position, joining fellow Team 8 member Yokoyama Yui over in Team K. Unlike Yoko-chan, however, Moka did not stay. Lasting almost a year, her graduation arrived in November 2018, this self-described flirty girl desperate to lessen the divide between fans and members finally heading out into adulthood and leaving her former teammates behind.
Like Nanase, like many members of Team 8, Moka isn't the kind of girl that gets invited back for reunions and anniversary, but also like those former teammates of hers, Yaguchi Moka was one of the girls who brought AKB48 shouting and dancing into where it is now, a place where anniversaries and reunions can be celebrated.
With the release of 47 no Suteki na Machi e on the B side of Kokoro no Placard in 2015, Team 8, with Moka amongst them, set out on tour, performing in a number of prefectures, not least of all her home ground of Miyazaki. Throughout this period, Moka and Team 8 were propping up the B sides of almost every AKB release, joining Tsumugi by making it as far Teacher Teacher before her graduation. I had stepped back at this point in time, but I can't help but wonder what these days must have been like for newer fans at the time, especially those brought in by the nationwide tour. It must have felt like there were two AKBs at this time, the "underground idols" doing all the hard work touring and actually being "idols you can meet," and, in contrast, AKB the institution, what remained of the Kami 7 and the golden age. This conflict can be seen in the results of the general election, for which Moka failed to rank each year of her time in the group right up until her final year when, like any sensible person, she chose not to participate.
From the age of three, Moka had been studying ballet, and whilst idols represent a very different kind of dance, I think it's obvious that, unspoken, she was part of the changing trend in the idol industry and AKB itself that saw the group pivot towards a more complex focus on dance than previous generations. Being an idol often implies having a number of talents, yet dance has become so integral to the identity of the medium, partly following the explosion of the Hallyu Wave, that I cannot fault management for wanting to make use of the inordinate number of trained girls that came of age and turned up at auditions during these years.
In 2017, as with other members of Team 8, Moka was afforded a concurrent position, joining fellow Team 8 member Yokoyama Yui over in Team K. Unlike Yoko-chan, however, Moka did not stay. Lasting almost a year, her graduation arrived in November 2018, this self-described flirty girl desperate to lessen the divide between fans and members finally heading out into adulthood and leaving her former teammates behind.
Like Nanase, like many members of Team 8, Moka isn't the kind of girl that gets invited back for reunions and anniversary, but also like those former teammates of hers, Yaguchi Moka was one of the girls who brought AKB48 shouting and dancing into where it is now, a place where anniversaries and reunions can be celebrated.
